Thursday, April 27, 2006
Finally, I'm working from home!
It's my day off today and I'm rather bored. Thank God for Wikipedia! At last there's a website I can visit where I can read about almost everything under the sun and beyond.
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Katt and I just had supper. We talked about certain things, but what made me really think is our conversation about my sexuality. I've always considered myself a bisexual. I love guys...they're too good to give up! I am physically attracted to some guys. However, I would rather have a highly emotional relationship with a woman. I do like women for their softness and tenderness. I fell in love with one. I wish that the next time I fall in love with my own kind, I could have a long term relationship with her.
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I still love her. I know it is pathetic. I do keep myself busy so I won't keep thinking about her. But somehow she manages to slip into my consciousness.
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I'm an artist. I have the capacity to feel ordinary emotions deeply and intensely, which is why I fall hard when I fall in love.
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Purple is my color! Go figure...
Posted @ 6:11 AM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
I was with her practically the whole afternoon. She went to Robinsons Ermita for her last-minute shopping. I missed her so much! If it weren't for her aunt and cousins, I would have hugged and kissed her. Just being with her made me incredibly happy. She did not have to do anything special; she just had to be there to make me happy.
I love her so much! She was with her husband. As I've told some of my friends, I don't hate him or anything...I am even grateful to him for taking good care of her. I know that she is happy with him and that she is in good hands. We rode a cab and her hubby stayed at the front seat. We were at the backseat. I told her that I would miss her very much. We held hands for a long time. I felt as if my heart was going to explode with emotions. I could only hold back my tears because I did not want to ruin that perfect moment. I wanted to embrace her, and to tell her that I love her very much, but I know she already knows. When the time came for us to part ways, she gave me a peck on the cheek, and the funny thing was, her husband did the same thing! The kiss I gave him is my way of saying thanks for loving and taking care of the person I love more than life itself...
Posted @ 9:48 AM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
I'm at work here in the headquarters. Can't wait to work from home. Katt will go home to Davao by the end of the month, and she will give me her room. I'll just be paying her for the deposit. I am going to have a phone line and Internet connection minus the effort! Thanks a lot, Katt.
I've been working here for a couple of months now. It's getting pretty tiring and embarrassing. I always have to wake somebody at the end of my shift so that someone can lock the door to the Stop House. However, I appreciate Miss Len's patience and generosity for letting me work here.
I've been botching up calls. I have been reviewing the accounts in Traincaster. I wish I could have more time. Well, I only have to wait for couple of weeks...
She's going back to U.K. It's just so sad that I cannot send her off because she's leaving on Tuesday. I miss her so much that I feel like crying every now and then. I wish I could stop feeling this way for her...
Boots and I have a "project". Both of us are going to lose weight. I'm on a diet. I eat a lot of fruits. I eat an apple or a banana before I start every meal. It helps me to eat less. I also snack on fruits. When I transfer to Katt's dorm I will go to the gym regularly. My uncle, who works at a nearby fire station told me that there is a gym in the area. I can also take swimming lessons this summer.
I'm quite excited about moving to Pasig and losing weight!
Posted @ 7:30 AM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
She's back.
I miss her so much. When I saw her again, I felt like giving her a hug, but the dictates of propriety prevented me from doing so. We only talked for about five minutes. I wish I could stretch the minutes into days. Heck! I wish I could stretch them into years, maybe decades, or perhaps centuries, millennia, or an eternity! She had to go very soon and I am not sure if we are going to see each other before she goes out of the country again.
I love her with all that I am.
Posted @ 10:11 AM
