Sunday, August 28, 2005
I'm here in the office, organizing my inbox and my things. I have also printed out the emails that the SRs sent for me to study. I'm supposed to be enjoying my rest day, but I just can't get over the fact that I may be one of the "dunces" here in Macromedia...
I just heard that Mike and his girlfriend have broken up. I was in the restroom yesterday when I heard the girl say, "Walang hiya siya...". She said that she has been without a boyfriend for weeks. I wonder what Mike did to her. Well, I'd rather mind my own business...
I haven't been eating well since I saw the pictures in the email that Ru-ann forwarded. They're gross! In Japan, people have been eating babies! I don't think those babies were fetuses. They were infants! They even sell preserved babies' brains! I find it hard to believe that some people could be so appallingly inhuman! Most animal species do not eat their own kind. Infancy is the stage in which a human being is most beautiful. It saddens and infuriates me to see those babies being butchered like some common livestock. It saddens me even more to think that they would be reduced to shit afterwards...
I miss her. I cannot deny that I am still in love with her. I have been trying to meet guys hoping that I will fall in love again. I constantly remind myself that she is now married. I know that she is happy, and I am happy for her. I am honestly happy for her, but I am sad for myself. What really pains me is that I can never make her happy the way her husband does. I miss her so much. My heart always aches for her. I have paid a dear price for loving her this way. It may take years before I get over her, or perhaps I never will...However, as I have said, I must never let my happiness depend upon the decisions of others. I've loved her and have lost, but life goes on...
I miss my family. I wish I could go home this Christmas, but it is like asking for the moon. I've just found out that I need to wait till March before I could file for a V.L. Sykes employees are entitled to V.L.s a year after they were hired...
I'm having a bout with the big D again. I've promised to be happy no matter what. I think I need to see a movie...to relax...to beat stress...
Posted @ 3:19 AM
