Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Let me tell you about myself. I'm twenty nine years old, a college drop-out who works in a call center. I may be a college drop-out, but I do have an insatiable thirst for learning. One of my teachers once said that there are only two things in this world that has no saturation point, and those are loving and learning. I cannot get enough of both. I dropped out of college because I could not see the point of going to school except to earn a diploma. I learn more by studying on my own: by reading, by observing, and by listening to people.
I look like a butterball; I'm short and fat, but I'm trying to lose weight. I am far from being pretty, but I can always be beautiful inside. I hope some of my inner beauty would come to the surface.
I have a profound respect for all human beings. I believe that GOD is in every human being. I try to be kind to everyone, but sometimes my temper gets the better of me. Seeing GOD in everyone is a big challenge... I love kids. Their innocence, naivete, and playfulness appeal to me. I see GOD more clearly in children more than I do in grown ups...I'd love to have children of my own someday.
I am the eldest in the family. My parents separated when I was eight. I've been a mother to my younger siblings. Last January, I decided to move away from home to find myself, and see what the real world is like. I feed and clothe myself; my aunt helps me with the rent.
I have lived a colorful life. My cousin once said that if my life were a soap opera, it would span the length of thirteen years. I have loved, had my heart broken, loved again, had my heart broken again, and so the story goes on...I have been through a lot of pain, and I have made a lot of mistakes, but then again, we learn from those...I'm tired of the drama in my life. I have learned that happiness is a choice and that all that I need is already within me. I am whole and complete. I remember my cousin's friend saying: "I do things, not because I want to become happy by doing them; I do them because I am happy."
Books and music are two of my greatest loves. I cannot imagine life without either of them. I thrive on reading. My books are my bedfellows. I play the flute, the piano, and the guitar. I love to sing. I used to be a choir soloist and a band singer, but unfortunately, my voice has deteriorated. I can appreciate all genres of music, from classical to heavy metal. I am also a word-lover. I love solving crossword puzzles.
Whenever I dance, I become the life of the party...because everybody laughs! I dance like a duck. My mother was an excellent dancer during her younger years and until now, despite the weight she has put on, she does a mean chacha, swing, and she can even strut! I never inherited my Mom's terpsichorean genes. My body is a bit stiff and there is not a graceful bone in my body.
I hope to become a writer and a musician someday. I write to know what I think. I am such a scatterbrain. Writing helps me put my thoughts together. Writing is also good therapy. I keep three journals...one is my stream-of-consciousness journal, where I write whatever comes to mind. I also have a gratitude journal; keeping a gratitude journal has helped me appreciate life. There is so much to be thankful for...The other one is my learner's journal, where I write down all the things that I learn from day to day...like a new word, an interesting piece of trivia, a profoundly striking thought, etc. These journals keep me sane...
I am passionate, especially when it comes to romance. I am very sweet towards those I deeply care for...Once I love someone, it is for always. The kind of love may change, but nevertheless, the love will always be there...I'd like to keep my love life as private as possible, but I do like to write and talk about love.
I am easy to please. Simple things make me happy. As I always say, "Ang mga taong mabababaw ang kaligayahan ay ang mga taong malalalim..." Only people who think deeply can see beyond the ordinary. GOD is in everything and in everyone; we only need to learn the art of looking beyond to see Him. I don't belong to any religious institution or group. GOD is within me and I focus on this reality. I worship GOD everywhere. I worship GOD in people. I worship GOD in nature. I worship GOD in myself.
Enough of myself...
Posted @ 7:17 PM
